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@ 2008-08-28 – 10:40:59
Why is it, that in order to start living I must feel flattened and empty first?
Why do I have to die a thousand deaths before recognising the real dawn, and would rather reject and discourage than hope and rejoice?
Being well acquainted with disappointment and loss may mean that seeking those helps re-establish the only stable grounds I know.
But.
Where is my spirit gone?
miramaze
lucreziaborgia
Pro Maybe I should just let go of everything, including this blog.
miramaze
Blog can be a lifeline - a place to vent . Don't go . I'll miss you (((hugs )))
You can pm me if you like too.
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kevinwilson
Pro i think that empty feeling is the prelude to new things, so don't be afraid of it. it's part of the process of moving on.
i remember it well.
xx
lucreziaborgia
Pro Is it better to feel empty, or to feel hurt? Or did you feel both? x
kevinwilson
Pro just empty, i think.
afraid too.
x
Foxwriter
I don't believe that immersion in spiritual accidie is a necessary prequel to happiness, but it does mean one has something to strive for.
(And I don't mean sloth).
Collar
Great point, F.
Lu, I think it is usually related to a philosophy of life that does not match our experience.
lucreziaborgia
Pro What's the experience you are talking about, David? Anything I can learn?
lucreziaborgia
Pro Something to strive for, F? I am sick and tired of being the mover and shaker, both physically and emotionally. Sloth... that's unknown territory for me, but I sure wish I could visit.
KsanUK
Once your on your way down, its painful and abrasive.
But that moment when you finally know its the lowest is so blissful; there is the fuzzy warmth of feeling that comes from knowing that tomorrow is the beginning and the only way now is back up.
Not quite worth the initial plummet though!
lucreziaborgia
Pro What if one stays at the lowest forever?
KsanUK
Ah.
Ermmm.
...
many of us fear to take the next step,
few got out of the cage and fly,
others were set free forever,
others fell even deeper,
but the loneliest was the one who kept him/herself,
forever captive.
lucreziaborgia
Pro Precisely my point, D! I maintain that freedom (individual freedom, freedom of the spirit, etc.) is the one ingredient we cannot do without.
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(((hugs ))))
The dark night of the Soul ?
Your spirit is still there .. perhaps just stepped out of the way for a while so that a space for the NEW to be born ?
This too shall pass.
Bless
XXX